i was going to be the the strong one,I was going to be the shoulder to cry on,that was going to be me...I've been doing this for years...I dont know anything else...before i was the baby, I cryed all the time, then i seen you cry...not the same way i did you cryed for somone to be your sheld you needed me....I gave up who i was & i became this....thing...i became...numb....i locked the girl i was in a room & i thought that...I would never see her again...but when i let myself cry when you were there...everthingi work for the years i spent trying to become numb, i wanted to be able to look at my memory's & feel...nothing...I wanted that so much...& then you....you said i Can cry...what?i dont understand when i put the lock on that door i was prepard never to see her again & i was ok with that I knew that I had to, you needed me & know you dont???im not understandng. I was so close & know its gone i have to start again...but do i want to??? when you said it was ok for me to cry that lock broke & she came out in one big jump & the real queston is...Can I lock her up again...do i have the stranth for that for even the power I missed her to much..& i know that you guys did so do I really Want to?